kenapa mengikut perasaan?

seringkali mood perempuan memang dikaitkan dengan emosi?
betul atau tidak?

the idea of loving and living (mkn,bgn,tido,jaga asyik dia sahaja dihati mcm ITM dihatiku) with unknown man is very interesting. Allah S.W.T telah menetapkan jodoh masing masing. Kalau tak sempat didunia, diakhirat adalah pasti. Jodoh kita sampai bila, bahagia atau tidak, pun telah dikatakan qada dan qadar. Macamana pula dengan pertengkaran (gaduh bunyinya kasar!)?Jodoh saya dengan orang yang garang(tapi bukan dengan saya, dengan kerjayanya), yang kelakar dan yang selalu memaafkan saya walaupun saya yang salah. 6 tahun bercinta, 3 tahun berkhawin always hubby throw away his ego and pujuk me. Sound perfect kan? tapi kenapa masih rasa nak marah-marah dan tak puas hati?

to think back, unfair to you darling hubby. Im mad because of you dukung junior tinggi dari kedudukan saya yang nak menyuap, im mad because saya tak pandai tolak stroller nak escalator, im mad because i persuade him to buy cheap car charger instead of RM79 punya(sudahnya after 1 hour he threw it out tepi hiway, kesian charger tu), im mad because dia tak beli burger eventhough senindiri cakap dah kenyang walau sendiri minta 5 minit sebelum ni.WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??

im being thankful to Allah SWT for His gift to me.. A beloved darling husband whom love me unconditionally(walaupun bangun pagi lambat gosok gigi pun dia kiss muah muahss before off to work!). Yet, why, why and why, i love to cari pasal with him? why? period-nope! tension-tak kerja pun stress ke? pregnant-HUMMMM...-ve baru check pagi tadi. Apa darling husband cakap, semua tak kena. Apa dia buat, rasa macam nak buat balik aje apa dia buat.(sanggup basuhkan baju and jemur baju and kemas skit pun banyak komplen kan saya ni??)

yela, betul la tu. Perempuan memang beremosi. Tak payah tunggu period/pregnant/tensen/fatigue/seangkatan dengannya. Memang i do admit, sengaja cari pasal actually. benda kecik diperbesarkan, benda besar memang la nak kita besarkan ye tak? While we love perfection, men also need some space. Semua nak buat cara kita, cara dia pun ada betulnya(walaupun kadang kadang!).

therefore, hubbydarling, this is my open, humble, honest apology. I AM TRULY DEEPLY SORRY FOR EVERY SINGLE STUPID THING I SAID.

p/s : like i said...errr, sengaja cari pasal :)

She's the second last! (with video updated)

MIMI - married with 3 kids,
AISHAH - married with 1 and half kids (all the best for second baby)
ROSE - married with 1 and half kids (due 26/7)
MAS - married with 2 kids (sepasang plak tu)
*RAMLAH - married with 3 kids (she smsd, said already 3 daa & living in N9)
PNUT - married with 1 kid
FARA - married with 2 kids (if im not wrong also)
AZLIN - married, with unknown status. ini kes memang aku tak tahu cerita. Kes tukar no phone tak bagitahu.
ME - married with 1 kid
JAJA - married with perut sarat nak due (due 27/7 pakat dgn rose ek?)
azlina - NEWLY WED 24 May 08
THEME - your day will come my dearest :)

This is name list of our female young officers back then in Uitm Dungun(batch 99-01). We was young, high spirit, eager in everything. We achieved our dream to become one as we wanted and some still in touch, some drifted unknown. So much for the bonding ehhh? Miss u guys, wish we can have a small union after all these years. If you come across my humble blog, do leave some trail :)



24May 2008 the day Azlina binti Ishak got married with Azhar.(She's the 2nd last among all).Congrats newly wed!!Semoga berbahagia dunia akhirat. May Allah bless you with health, good future and lots of kid.
Some not able to attend, for the sake of others, let me put up few pictures. She is so beautiful, queen of the day sampai anakandaku pun tak berkelip tengok dia. With golden attire queen-of-the-day-like and blushing make up, she rocked her wedding day with smiles. The most compatible bride and groom of the day!!
kan aku dah kata anakanda pun sampai terpusing tengok pengantin!

miss theme with my anakanda, both waiting patiently for the sanding.(perut sudah kenyang)

3 of us still waiting patiently for the sanding, anakanda sibuk pandang kipas canggih sedang ligat berpusing.

ala tomei2nya dia, eh, lawanya dia. The bride is smiling all the day round. Macam tak caya she got married this morning.

banyaknya hantaran!

dengan silunya, pengantin menunggu pasangan di pelamin.

tutup!tutup!kak, lipstik saya takde lekat gigi ke?

miss theme and pn. aishah serta anakandanya serikan pelamin menunggu pengantin lelaki. dapat angpow plak tu!

pengantin lelaki kena lalu 'tol'. my first encounter with this tradition. funny, yet very interesting how the representative 'bargained' with tol monies.

Ini la dia Encik Azhar & Pn. Azlina.

pejam mata pulak!

asal aku amik je pejam mata!

pelamin yang indah bagaikan di alam kayangan

ish! pejam lagi. bulu mata berat ke pengantin?

enterframe saya & pn aishah, dah nak balik daaaa.

bubyeee

that day, we went home : SEBUAH PENYESUAIAN

Sadis betul kalau dikenangkan.Tok dia sedih sesedih sedihnya.Junior macam paham, sepanjang perjalanan diam, tengok luar gelap (hari malam),sepanjang perjalanan tido. Ibu membisu, cuba memahami situasi yang ganjil dan menyayat hati. Hati ibu sungguh pilu, seperti anak, ibu juga bakal mencari esok.Berdua tiada diherankan, tapi bertiga sekarang lain feel nya. Apatah lagi cucu membesar didepan mata.

Esok hari, cucu menangis pilu. Mana tok yang selalu mendukung pagi2? mana maksu yang selalu boring bila dia mula menangis? Mana? Mana? Sepanjang hari menangis, dari pagi sampai malam.Letih menangis, tido, bangun menangis kembali.Baru dia paham, yang dia bukan lagi berada disana, dia disini. Apa kisah dengan tok nya? Mandi basah kah? Makan kenyang kah? Ibu sms pun tak sanggup dijawap. Tok, kami nak ucapkan berbanyak banyak rindu, dan terimakasih atas segala-galanya, terutama bagi pihak ibu. Jasa tok tak dapat kami balas. Ibu sayangggggggg tok muahhhssssssssssss!

Anak, nanti ibu bawa pulang kesana. Sedih macamanapun, tempat kita disisi ayah. Kena ingat ye.
Tok, jangan sedih lagi.kalau tok pilu, kami lagi sayu.
Tapi kami bakal pulang!!!

Reminiscing of 17 years of friendship – 5 May 1991

We started small at our lil SMSJ, we put thru a good result for SPM. We did part-time job at the same mall, We even headed for same university (lain branch aje).Pesal we did get married same day aje kan?We still contact each other, occasional small gathering, brunch, lunch date.
Still remember we have our own ‘buku conteng’? sebuah buku yang digunakan sepenuhnya utk melakarkan coretan hati, keinginan diri, dan cita2?(mana pi buku tu weii?).
Macam budak-budak yang berlagak dewasa aje that time.
But I do not wish that we can turn back time, since we are now able to bide our sorrows and gulp our dilemmas.Apapun, macam manapun,nothing has changed, except we all married.(err, and the pic speak itself hihi)
Thank you for being my true friend for the past 17 years, and more years to come.May Allah s.w.t. bless both of you, in health & good being.
She is Sharifah Muharra Diba & She is Intan Zulaikha
This is for you,
the one person I can let know my soul
Who can relate to me like no other
Who I can laugh with to no extents,
Who I can weep too when times are rough,
Who can help me with the troubles of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me
or told me I wasn’t good enough
or let me down
I don't think you know what that means to me
And I love you for listening
I look up too you because you are strong,
and thoughtful and beautiful.
And I hope you know that I am for all time here
To listen to your laugh and cry and lend a hand
In all the ways that I can
And I will try to be at least half the friend you are
I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, with out you.
HAPPY BELATED 17TH YEARS OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP.

pain pain, go away ...110508

My love, there's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
My first love, you're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I, I want to share all my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes they tell me how much you care
Oh, yes you will always be my endless love

Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
Forever I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love I'll be a fool for you I'm sure
You know I don't mind
'Cause you, you mean the world to me
Oh, I know I found in you my endless love

Oh love
I'll be that fool for you, I'm sure
You will know I don't mind
Oh you know I don't mind [honey I don't mind]
and yes, you'll be the only one
'cause no one can deny this love I have inside
and I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

kak elly, aunty elly

front from right to left - my sis cha, dayana
back from right to left - mustika, meme(standing), fatimah and diana.













Last week thursday, @ayahteh's-tahlil for our late tok&tokki&nyang...-
Seeing them, growing up .. issh, dah besar sepupu sepipit ku ini. Ramai lagi, tp kenduri kan,standard la yang kecik2 aje kerumun camera. yang besar2 malu, bergambar dgn gf/bf tak malu plak.ihihihhi. Yang dah kawin pun ramai,cuma dorang tgh cibuk isi perut. Dulu kak elly,sikit2 kak elly, "kak elly nk dukung(faris),kak elly tolong pakaikan tudung(nana),kak elly tolong lukiskan doraemon(alia&amir),kak elly tolong letak lipstick(aainaa),bla,bla,bla". Sekarang dah naik taraf, AUNTY elly. Setakat ni takde lagi yang minta tolong ape2,paling2 pun openhouse minta amikkan air dorang dahaga cheh! cos dorang still kocik & gap widen + parent dorang pun tak sibuk2 suruh dorang mingle dgn aunty elly ni.Hum,tak glamor dah saya ni mcm kecik2 dulu. Yang best tu boleh cakap "kak elly ada aydan skang".

Without realizing,gap is huge. Reason:infrequent visits both them and mine.Kes sedara seniri pun everytime jumpa asyik tanya benda sama aje (darjah/tingktn brape?course ape?bila abis?anak dh sekolah?anak 2nd,3rd ape nama?). Unlike hubby's side, semuanya dia kenal, sampai 3pupu pun sama2 'port' lagi,aiseyyy. nanti junior ni janganla tak kenal sedara.

Well, i'll try to re-patch.i'll to make time for family gathering.(Insyaallah)
Sian dorang kan, nanti dah tak ingat kak elly/aunty elly lagi.dulu kecik2 i paling glamor tau!perasan!

sebab apa saya pakai tudung?

Sebab apa saya(refer diri sendiri la kan) pakai tudung :

1. dapat hidayah frm Allah s.w.t - ini kes mmg anugerah
2. parent suruh - ini kes rela dalam paksa
3. pengaruh rakan sebaya - ini kes mcm tak wujud je zaman ni
4. pengaruh celebrity - aih,ini lagi impossible
5. suami suruh - ini tak leh wat ape dah,kang derhaka namanya
6. tudung sekarang fashionable - lilit,pusing,bunga kembang belakang
7. lindung kepala - malaysia sangatla panas
8. pi kenduri/tahlil/kawan kawin kat masjid - ini selalu tengok
9. "on & off" lagi tak payah cerita la ye (category yang paling popular)

tapikan bila dah pakai, jarang yang menepati ciri2 yang ditetapkan Islam.If tak ketat,sempit sendat, mesti pendek,takpun lutsinar cam x-ray,nampak leher,tudung pun tak labuh. Kat jln tar byk tudung,mcm2 fesyen, tapi mesti ala-ala jarang plak tudung. Sexy you!!




Tau kenapa susah sangat nak ikut?
Sebab kalu ikut rasa macam tak lawa aje, rasa macam muda lagi tunggu tua,sebab nak cari yang cantik tapi panjang/labuh mesti color/corak tak lawa,diri pun rasa kureng glamor.

Actually, tudung nak kena labuh,tutup dada,tutup punggung.
tudung nak kena tebal dan tak nampak biasan leher/bentuk badan atas.
tudung pun nak kena warna yang pudar supaya tidak menarik perhatian.
aiihh, ni belum cakap pasal baju lagi.

PERINGATAN : AURAT MESTI DITUTUP SEMPURNA, SUPAYA DIKENALI SEBAGAI WANITA MUSLIMAH DAN TIDAK DIGANGGU - mentally/physically. (mana ada orang 'ganggu' yang bertutup sempurna, orang tu pun tau malu)

Terpulang, tepuk dada tanya selera. errr, yang menulis ni pun lebih kurang aje. Kurang solehah sikit!

200+ km, 6 month apart

Penat otak pikir, penat badan travel..being his wife is one tough job. We moved few times. After giving birth to junior (bukan!sejak pegnen 8bulan lg)lama dah tak jenguk rumahku disana.Ntah ape cite. Ntah brape byk cicak tinggalkan 'harta', ntah brp byk habuk pun tinggalkn 'i was ere'.
Hubby, kan best umah tu kita leh lipat2 and simpan dlm beg. Mana kita pi,kita bawak. Sure takde la buta2 rumah tu kena tinggal takda orang duduk kan. Entah2 kelapa sawit blakang umah pun dah boleh tuai.

200km is not much, but for him to travel up&down, being weekend husband (father now) is exhausting + poket sengkek sey…while 6 month maybe not long enough for some people, but make me very sick + very lonely without you at my side.

Hubby, I follow you next week ye. It is time to balik, let us be with you. Kesian hubby pagi2 asyik mkn roticanai mamak,tghari ns campur khemah kuning,mlm nasi paprik dkt kedai 25jam tu. Meh kita sama2 makan la pulak heheh..

Tq you for being such an understanding creature, we love & miss you sl from far.
Aiihh, actually im the one missing you so much, itu junior tatau ape pun lagi :)

me,him & junior

reality

Boring boring ku tengok internet,terjumpa lawak ni.Klako!!

Dear IT Support,
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.

And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?
Signed,
Desperate Housewife

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Reply:
Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind: Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0. If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1. Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wavfiles.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

kuang kuang kuang.... !!!